I have a family pedigree riddled with addiction & mental illness. For most of my life, I battled feelings of shame, insignificance, and depression.  As a 20-something new mom, I said goodbye to my firstborn—a girl—when she was 4 days old, which launched me into a major depressive episode that could have ended my life. I later earned a psych degree and became a counselor at a behavioral facility, a psychiatric hospital, and an addiction recovery center. I would also visit siblings who were patients in these places; places that it became abundantly clear to me didn’t hold the big healing picture.

As a 30-something mom to young Noah, Savannah, and Sawyer, I had a deep desire to bring out my beauty and voice, so embarked on a childhood dream to do pageants. This, after hitting an all-time frumpy rock-bottom and making a guest appearance on none other than Oprah! Seeing myself on live, national television—not exactly looking and feeling my best—compelled me to seek out coaches and mentors as I plunged headlong into an intense season of research & self-refinement. In 2004, with the platform of inspiring self-worth in women, I was crowned Mrs. Utah.

Ironically, my sister Shawna—a thirty-two-year-old mother of five—was losing her own battle with self-worth at this same time. She took her life the year I passed on my title.

IT CHANGED

everything.

As a 40-something mom, I  did a lot of writing, speaking & coaching for women. The prospect of generational mental illness manifesting in my kids led to a “mama bear” uprising, wherein I roared and slashed my way out of traditional, clinical treatment models—ones that hadn’t fully healed any of my clients or loved ones. I dove into integrative methods and natural tools for cleansing, biochemical support & sensory integration. I started teaching other mothers. God blessed and steered me on an amazing path of facilitating leadership development & natural health solutions that has expanded my Blue Rose Wellness doTERRA organization, globally, to hundreds of thousands strong.

FEMININE

creation

Now, as a 50-something mom, I've got three young adults and two love bugs (Eli & Emma) who've exploded on the scene. I had 4 miscarriages in a row trying to bring them here, yet the Universe/Hand of God delivered them via separate private adoptions. They came through “announcing dreams” and their miraculous stories have been featured in two books and a documentary. Eli’s amazing “tummy mommy,” Jessica, is a former coaching client of mine and lived with us for most of her pregnancy. We adopted Eli at birth, but Em was our foster baby whose precarious adoption finalized when she was a year old.

The 7 year-long journey to bring the last two children home taught me more about the powerful process of Feminine Creation than anything I could have read about.

A MISSION IS SOMETHING YOU WANT TO DO.

A callingIS SOMETHING

YOU HAVE TO DO

-- JOHN MAXWELL --